MISSING...

I feel cold raindrops on my lips and fingers,
I hate myself for wanting him, but linger
To go and leave it all at once - I still stay;
This anger devours me inside, there's no way...

I can see nothing through mist around me,
Hanging my head down, I hide my gaze.
Everybody has somewhere to hurry...
Never notice me, just walk away!..

So fast it gets dark,
And rain becomes hard...
"Abandoned by Fate"-
That's my second name...
Don't think about this,
Accept what it gives you!
I speak and I cry,
And silence replies:
There's just one place
You always return,
Get warm with hot tea;
My dreams await me...

...I wish I could hear his voice
And see him just once!
I know that he is
Just my next disease...

THE ONLY FRIEND

She couldn't conceal, she could not hide
Her woes and her sadness behind the smile.

Talking to silence, she sends herself
Letters, confessions, tickets to hell...

That's all she has got and won't throw away.
What is the meaning of these words I say?

Alone she was born and alone she will die;
No miracle will happen, no one’s to hear her cry!

She is forever herself's only friend.
Will God ever hear her? Will he understand?

So easily love has turned into hate;
There's no damned chance to flee from her fate!

Forgive all her mistakes, fill her empty soul...
Who'll give her the reasons for living in this hole?!

Being the only one friend to herself,
Searching the remedy,
Fading to history - was this just meant to be?..