So I came back yesterday, after 9 p.m., sunburnt and red, with my skin aching and burning, so I could hardly walk. After the all-day rain, I tried to get a tan in a couple of hours, and that's what I have now. I had to rub myself with sour cream, but it was of little help. And I'm only partially tanned... Plus the same problem appeared again - the one that I cured about a month ago... I just don't know where all this shit comes from, I'm fucking plagued by it half of my life!
I think we had a good time in Berdyansk with Alena and the homeowners that we stayed with, but I can't say I was in raptures, as I'm always in a sullen mood ever since I was betrayed and deceived. Moreover, my fear of water, my antiquated swimsuit and inability to swim make me frustrated and unwilling to come to the beach.
Reflecting upon changing my life before it's too late, I even thought about going to the university which she is entering, to become a specialist in computer technology, but then there were so many buts, that I'd better forget about second higher education forever. For such an inactive and dull person like me - I will not last more than a year; besides, I'm already too old, and being among the teenagers will make me even more depressed and full of self-loathing. Probably, this is not my way...
I did not go to work today, because it hurts me to walk. But tomorrow I must be there...
I just spent 2 days in another place, five hours' journey from here, but now it's the same old story.
I feel like I hate everything.